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After a five year bliss,blitz steps in,and reaked havoke.I thank God for the clean and sober days to come,and those that have already passed.I just know that when you come down off of crack,that the down time is different for every indi vidual.Well,Mr.Griecovich has hit a whopping few days of sobriety,and is ready for recovery.It is the few days that are the hardest.He can,and is as much a handful as the cat,Sandey,when it comes to letting go of his drug of chpooice.Sandey is doing well at the new apartment,aside from the idiocity of arguing while ajusting to the newly moved up on the East side.The "big" one took place a couple of days ago.We all,meaning the neighbors,know how it hurts to go through a rough couple of days of unjustful ness of the arguing.I did not feel tempted to pick up and use,for once.I am also a junk crack junkie,and it takes a heardened soul to keep up with me when I use,and or,come down.I am not the"proud" owner of what the past did ,or didn't do for me.I am a loser,who is coming back strong,fine tuned ,and stable.Thank you for the support,and greetings to my peers whom may be searching for the same type of clean life style that GOD offers a poor soul for the simmplicity of sobriety.Keep sober,and enjoy a meeting.

I don't know about anyone else,but these birds around here are invading air time.They swear and go on and on about chitter chatter.Yes,I love every one of them,and have named a few.Itty,tity ,bitty titty,itty,robbie,and royal,and,bj.

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Many a man and or woman has taken the war challenge,to return is the added bony.Why did we leave in the first place,after all,it is thier problem,they started it,and we will just lose alot of people in God's eyes,and our fellow neighbor's eyes.We will only be sticking our nose in to cut out a part of the future that may be really important.If we take out war,and substitute it with a friendly,hmmm,community search using lnd roving tanks,and be invited first,we just might have something.So will the community that we wnat to "visit".Are hotels really all that importantfor the entire population doesn't necessarily have that kind of money readily available,reputations can,and usually do associate themseves with the "hotel" lifestyle,drugs,alcohol,like little kids,it encorages us to hide opur activity rather than write up a proposal to the fda and try to grasp some knowledge of our favorite activity,then the next step would be to propose a statement to congress and legislature,to let them become aware of our individual request,they may just have time to contact fda to find out if that particular individual took that first step.If funding and time is available,there may be a positive outcome,with appropriate guidlines and warnings,We are adults,and hopefully want our children to fowllow responsible party methods,if they so choose to partake.So,let us take a more thorough look at our cummulated money and neighborhood,to see if we can't,as individuals,and or together,find a way to communicate what our needs are.

it was bitter cold,then my heart felt warmm for the first time.i ama jarhead.so,when you fault me,you fault my ability to do a job that only i can do.i needed to bo to mass to find out about common wealth.i needed to go to the un,to learn if there were openings,and i neede to be there at 18 years of age.i am very well known,but even you will never know why.you brought me to crack,after i told you about my habbit,and going against my green beret ex husband.then i need to go to dc,to find out if jr wrote me about my nobel entry.and to get my passport.well,here i am 5 years later than the 10 yrs i have already been.i used to expect my friends to read my poetry,listen to me at concerts.i was pompous.ididn't like being that way,as it went against my beliefs,of which there are many.i was exposed to prostitution,for fear of being raped by a pimp.so i was my own pimp.not ever again.because this heart  needs a good strong man. my health is fading because my nervous system is breaking down.i used to roller skate fri. and sat.we all had fun picking up on each other.the president of nike's son wanted to marry me.but i had cold feet.a good friend,mark korrow wanted to marry him so angie and i wuold be his family.also promissing we wuold have a baby  of our own too.i saw o movie about a drug lord who worked with the feds under cover.well,i tride that.i love helping the construction companies,as my community service.i also love to help my peers,so they know that there is an end to their plight also.i have been raped,ratted on,persecuted,and i still hang on.when i was in huron,i smacked my head 14 times.the twelve commandments of requisition of suicide,taka knife,jam it into the heart,twist,andpull it out.i'm a of the volunteer of veterans affars,and i have been stationed to this country by a sgt.sgts give the orders,even to  ceo,nceo.i have horrible flash backs of nam and the houlecaust.idon't know why.i have seen my pictures in nam books of missing officers.my social worker cleared my mind when she put closer and told me dc stated that i am military ofiliated with the military,but cannot prove up to date military  action.they were abkle to pull up me having done four tours in four months.i remember sitting beside you  thinking you were gay,and how embaressed at the fact i had tried to come on  you.that is when i knew that you were picking up on the bar tender or linda.i was married to a man here in ohio.he opened his life up to me,but we fought alot.i have been the head of my house hold since i was 17.i am not aggressive,dominant?yes.i am a survivor and i will tell you now,ido not have anything to lose,or be indignant of my training.that is how i hope to always be in training mode.my brother spit in my hair on opening night of brigadoon,so i broke my clarinet.i taut myself how to play the guitar,flute,oboe,trombone,alto,baritone tenor saxes.i am a determined "type" of woman.my cycle hasn't stopped,that is why i am moody also,along with auto immune diseases.i am slowly dying.now i am not affraid of when that will be.but i refuse to give in.you taught me to fight for my life,due to the diseases.you have made me angry,happy,depressed,but i always come back.i am almost done.if being with you for 5 years dosent prove how my love realy is.i wanted to talk to you.but that is ok.i can move on.even if it means taking sandey and going to hawaii.how much more do you want to know?i am an anorexic.i also worked while having a nervous break down.i need steroids to maintain the replacement of scar tissue from the mucles and tendons.my heart was broken when i saw the bcr,because eric faulkner got pissed at me.i don't think anyone will replace the love i felt for him.so there was  a rockin roll love letter for you.iearned three letters in hs,so,there are more things going on my life that you do not know about.hope you aren't hurt.but this parisite is done.but,somewhere out there is a unattached fish for me. MARY-ELEANOR,marie-eiliene,tahped laht

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i'm from nh.iwent to a school that was college prep,known as oyster river.i flirted just as much in school as i do here in ohio.i was of class 81,but have a ged.i went to a peter frampton in 78,and i had a blast.i was class clown.we had a game of grabbing eachothers asses. i grabbed the principal,vice principal,french teacher,and sience fiction teacher,but,told them i watched a freind do that behavior,and,he had a two month suspension at home.i wrestled in 8th grade,and beat every person in my gym classes.they wanted me on the hs jv wrestling team.i play the clarinet,obe,tenor sax,baritone clsax,and the flute. i was in the unh marching band for homecomming,but got stage fright.i played the tenor,first chair solo tenor.i had fun.ialso took art classes.i,m very medically ill.i have lupus,scleraderma,and four other illnesses that attak the central nervous system and immune system.they increased my brain med,and that scares me.thank you for listening,butter-love

iIn these times where we see history becoming reality,and keeping us from loving our world of nreghibors,may we buld the future as it is meant to be,for one,for all.Tgether we then live as one peaceful world rich in more than currency,and in our world where we hold on to ourselves as we hold on to God.My singing and playing my instru ments bring out the best in me.I look forward to every day sober.thank you if someone reads this.

I have fournd a simpler way to live.Stay clean,stay with God.For he loves me the way I came into his world.New and capable to strive to my every aspiration.H e doesn't mok me,I hear the sonds of the seasons,the sounds of love.What more can a former partier ask,but just that one day at a time I come to him withorwithou my good feelings.He gave me an adorable cat,what next?i'll wait.

I  feel like this sober life is good to me,and I am basking in life that only God can give.For other people out there,let this be their time to congrgate in the same space.My boyfrien/sponser is wonderful.We are all stronger to sesist temptation,than giving in to  our drug of choice.I pray for thosew who need a God faring,as they know him, as I have.We are a commuinity of a morning argunment and evening fret free.Why?because we have a pd that is true to their jobs.I too had a graven back yard that is reverent,used lightly,education with a backyard for onlyGod.Come my way,and you too will be guarenteed a open road to sobriety from God as you kjnow him,asI do as well.Strength is the first place to start,for  your drug  or choice is weak.Why?because it holds no weightWe rebuild our copmmunity,for we are our chpo's citizens,and they are faithful to us.

As we grow in these trying times,may we all that time with love will find us in a happier place.I am convinced that other countries would better help thier people,should they have wic,welfare,and our constitution as they see fit.A decloration of independant from communism wuold guide them to a comfortable place to better access the united nations and the league of nations.Just looking at the world through rose colored glasses of what we"want" has to take a back seat to war,and focusing on love thy neighbor as thy self.S o,letus ask the question,do we want to bully people as out strength,or move on to communication to start,before war begins.I do not believe that war makes money,but death.The book of revilations needs to be substituted to revolution.As we have lost our former president,Ford,we need to reflect on our former fathers of this country,to build dreams,and unite as one.For devided we fall.